i can't bear that

smiling and giggling when no one's with me is undeniably weird.
but it's just the memories that come are to funny.
they 'tickle' my mind a lot.
i know i'm happy.

i'm too ignorant.
i'll just ignore all the bad things that happen.
i don't care being embarrassed.
it's too simple for me.

somebody asked me:
"don't you ever wanna get married one day?"

i said "maybe not"

wonder why?
because i see marriage as a big responsibility.
i hate failure. and marriage failure is the last thing that i'd ever wanted to experience.
and i'm still young.
okay, learn this: i'm afraid of marriage.
i can't imagine myself being a wife,
nor taking care of a husband.

it's a big thing man!
i love to sulk,
i'm too sensitive,
hot tempered,
too childish,
and need to be pampered much.

no way!

not a chance to get wed.

i'm afraid, that's all.

that's all. don't be like me, i'm too coward. i can't follow rasulullah's sunnah that is: to get married. don't. be. like. me.

dush dash dush dash\\

meow