night

considering that it's a personal blog,
and that i've been quite anonymous,
i've never bothered to design my blog.
*sorrryyyyy i'm just too lazy *trollface*

somebody said this to me:
"stop thinking about your problems, just.. just smile, and be happy".

but it's not that easy!
i like thinking. like... almost all the time. even when i'm sleeping. or dreaming. (weird huh)
so i need distractions!

but what can actually distract me? tell meee~~

and i've found out my answer for this question:
"how's your life? how's school?"

my life? it's always great. i'm the one having problem to deal with it. so, my life's awesome but I'm not.
get it?

and my school? SBP* ****** Pasu?
it's great too. my previous posts must have scared many students that are maybe enthusiastic to go to this school. so, yeah, just come and study here. but if you're too used to having lots of technologies around like the internet or stuffs, better don't.
but yeah, my new school is indeed something new for me.
it's a big building, very interesting and quite magnificent.
and i survived well at the hostel. there's everything and it's comfortable.
my dorm mates are cool, basically.

and at school everything's cool.
except that the fact that i can't accept the way people make fun of my "Perak slang".
like seriously? do they expect me to speak Kedah and sound weird?
my classmates are funny and happy.
i can't seem to digest some of the things teachers teach, anyway. so, be prepared to study on your own!
and i can't face it when there's a lot of geniuses around the school.
so, i've learned to rebel.. a bit.
i'll ignore the ranking thing or whatsoever,
i'll just compete with myself. but i'll do it step by step. slowly mowly.

but one thing i've never liked is: the announcement. especially when it's done manually, i can't seem to here a thing. cik, use the mic!! due to my ignorance and my deafness, i've suffered myself a big big problem. i've lost a lot of valuable things that were thrown away by the 'authorized personnel'.

thinking whether i'll ever get straight As', i can't seem to answer that right now. i'm still modifying and searching for the correct way to study. i'll do anything to succeed. anything.

and the back talking is something i hate.
some of the girls back talked to much that i can't seem to believe anyone.
i don't like it when you hate somebody, you'll let everyone else know about it and make everyone else hates him/her too. that's so lame and childish. why don't ya just face that person instead.
like if you hate me, face me and tell me. i'll appreciate that. at least i can learn to improve.
but they are girls, anyway. gossip girls. xoxo. haha.

whatever it is, it's still a school worth going. and worth leaving. haha.
assalamualaikum.